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Blood equals Smex

Wednesday, March 4th, 2009

Note: This blog was originally published on my MySpace blog, May 2, 2008.

I like to think most of my characters are pretty sweet. I’ve been told by more than one person that this just isn’t true, so that probably says something about me right there.

But sometimes, gawd, I just want a hardcore blood=smex yaoi that makes my heart race.

Note: “Blood=smex” is a wise and ancient concept which states that if two hot guys are trying to kill each other, then of course they *must* harbor sexual feelings for each other. ExampleByakuya x Renji.

A while back I bought Best of Enemies by Cassidy Ryan, and I’d never gotten around to opening the file. I’d picked it up based on an excerpt I read at an M/M chat (lesson: e-loop chats find you all kinds of treasures), fully intent on reading it right away. Life got in the way, that didn’t happen, and I didn’t really think about it. Tonight, because I was aching to read something and didn’t know what the hell I was craving, I opened up the file. I finished the story about, oh, five minutes ago.

Holy. Freaking. Smack.

It’s only 3900 words, but damn. Hot, slightly sadistic vampire. Sexy, slightly vengeful sorcerer. Smart mouths and angry, angry sex all around. Turned out to be exactly what I needed. Since all my friends were snug in their beds by the time I read it, blogging about it was my only option. I’m still wired from my fling with Byron and Simeon, despite the fact that even now I’m not quite sure how to pronounce “Simeon.” I keep trying to pronounce it “simian,” which can’t possibly be right. “Sime-on,” maybe, although that didn’t occur to me until just now. I tend to be a little slow on the uptake.

They were great. With these two characters, I never did fully understand why it was blood=smex and not blood=BLOOD, since they’d done some pretty horrible things to each other in the past. But hell, even the not knowing works for the story because the whole thing is quick, raw, riveting. They kick ass while having sex, and that part is…

Definitely a guilty pleasure.

There it is. You’ve probably figured out by now why I don’t write reviews. When I like something, I squee and ramble, which really isn’t a good combination. So here’s the good stuff:

Best of Enemies
Cassidy Ryan
Torquere Press

If you’ve read it, or you pick it up, drop me a line and let me know what you think, okay?

Warm Rush: Chasing Winter

Wednesday, March 4th, 2009

Note: This blog was originally published on my MySpace blog, April 10, 2008.

My long-time homeless novel, Warm Rush, has been accepted by Amber Allure!  This was my very first published book, so I’m wicked excited to know it’s going to have a second life with a new publisher.  Yes!

I overhauled the story—cleaning up a slew of newbie mistakes that still make me cringe, answering a few questions that were left hanging in the first version, and even adding a new mini-scene.  With all that, it seemed appropriate that it get a brand new title:  Chasing Winter.   Warm Rush has been bumped up to series title.  How cool is that?

Yes, this means I’m planning a sequel.

No release date as of yet, but I’ll be sure to let everyone know when I get one.  For now, I’m just…basking.  I might even have a slice of apple pie to celebrate. (If you never got a chance to read the original novel, that comment will seem a lot more clever after you pick up Chasing Winter.)

I made an AMV!

Wednesday, March 4th, 2009

Note: This blog was originally published on my MySpace blog, April 2, 2008.

When I went to Katsucon in February, I got to attend their AMV (Anime Music Video) awards. It was much fun, and I didn’t even know those kind of things could be *done* with AMV’s, so I found myself enthralled.

My friend, a non-anime watcher who was nevertheless uber impressed, leaned over and said, “You should make one of those!”

My response?

“Are you nuts? That’s a whole skill-set that I don’t have!”

To which she blithely replied, “But you can do anything! I believe in you!”

My friends have too much faith in me, I think. But when I got home I gave it a try. All I had was the editing software that came with my computer (Windows Movie Maker) and I didn’t really know how to use it. I dinked around, did some stuff that made me grin and realize I was having fun. I did a Gravi video that still had the subtitles attached, but I cooed over it because it was mine.

At end of last month, I made a second video, using footage from Bleach. I love Byakuya x Renji, and even though they never hook up in the anime, I paired them together because I’m twisted that way. Adored how it turned out. I’m a newbie in every way when it comes to making these things, but I wanted to share:

Why it’s dangerous for writers to have a few minutes of free time.

Wednesday, March 4th, 2009

Note: This blog was originally published on my MySpace blog, March 26, 2008.

I made deviled eggs for Easter. My first time. They turned out really well, and I was impressed with myself.

Yesterday, I took one of those deviled eggs and deep fried the sucker. When it was done (yep, ate it), I called and/or emailed all of my friends saying something along the lines of “Dude! I totally just deep fried a deviled egg!”

Responses were mixed. Two friends were royally squicked: “Ew! I HATE deviled eggs and then you went and deep fried it!” The others laughed long and hard. All of them asked the same question.


Truth is, I have no idea what possessed me to do it. I’d just finished revising (and when I say revising this time around, I mean something closer to overhauling) a novel, I took care of a myriad of random things that needed tending to, I watched some anime. Then yesterday I was getting the eggs out of the fridge, and I noticed that I still had canola oil in my wok, and it just seemed like a good plan.

What did it taste like?

Bizarre. It came out crispy on the outside like a country-fried egg, and then the inside was still that classic deviled egg softness. I’m still not sure whether I liked it or not. Eating it probably took ten years off my life.

But it was much fun and my friends and I had a good laugh over it. Now I’m totally curious—

What kinds of crazy things have you done when you’ve been bored?

Goodbye Drayner Twins (at least for now).

Wednesday, March 4th, 2009

Note: This blog was originally published on my MySpace blog, March 24, 2008.

Just when I’ve buckled down and sent Warm Rush to a new publisher in the hopes of a re-release, I got the news that another of my stories will be homeless as of April 1st.

In about a week, Just Wait will no longer be available for purchase. And given my dark and sexy anti-heroes—Mark and Travis Drayner—are twins, it’s unlikely it’ll see the light of day for a while.

Dark Eden Press, the publisher currently housing Just Wait, is closing its doors next month. Although I’m depressed about seeing it go, I also understand why it had to be done. Two of its owners have been diagnosed with serious health problems, and rather than subject DEP to a slow deterioration, they chose to close. I’m sure it was a difficult decision, and I’m sure it was the right one given the circumstances.

Bottom line, if you haven’t met my Drayner Twins yet, you have until April 1st to do so. Same goes for the other excellent stories on the site at

Health issues can throw a monkey wrench into the best situations. I’m posting Debra Durham’s letter to her authors below. We’re all definitely pulling for her.



From Debra Durham (March 24th, 2007): 


I don’t often share much personal stuff about myself or what is going on with me, so I never thought I would be coming to any of you with this but sometimes life comes at you and you have to deal with it, and this is one of those times for me.


I could beat around the bush here but that’s not me.  You deserve the truth even if it is painful for me to talk about.


I have found out recently, very recently, that my cancer has returned.  For those of you who do not know, this is my 6th time around with this in a little over 10 years.  It started as cervical cancer 10 years ago and each time has gotten worse and spread to other places.  I will be starting chemotherapy and radiation treatments shortly and as I have been through these same treatments twice already, I can honestly say it isn’t pretty.


After discussing the issues and options with Susan and Billi, and then Gretchen and Brenda, it was decided for a few reasons that I will discuss below, that the only option was to close Dark Eden as of April 1st.  I have to devote my energies and my time to getting better, and to my daughter.


One reason for closing is the treatment plan itself.  I will be in no shape to run a company, much less take care of anything else.  Another reason is with Brenda having gone back to work fulltime, that would leave just Gretchen to do it all and as great as she is, she can’t do it by herself.  Billi works fulltime and does her part of the business in the evenings and on weekends.  Susan has health problems that she didn’t have when we started this company and wouldn’t be able to do the things that I do.  It was hard enough after the house fire to keep things running smoothly and even then they were getting some help from me.  They pitched in and ran things beautifully after the fire but that was only for a few months, this would be for the next 6 months at the very least.


The last reason is all of you.  All of you deserve an owner who is going to be here, who is able to get the things done that need to be done.  I don’t want my authors trying to figure out why I haven’t answered emails for a couple of days, or why royalties are late, or wondering when the things that need to be taken care of are going to get done, when the reality is that I will be too sick to do it.


I will spend the next two weeks preparing letters to release your book rights to you, doing March royalties, and closing the readers group.  I will then begin shutting down all the DEP email addresses except for my own and forwarding all mail from that to my personal email address.  By May 1st, I would hope all payments have cleared the bank, and on that date I will also close the author group.


On a personal level, I feel horrible that this has to be done to all of you.  I have come to know almost every one of you personally and I feel as if I have let you all down when you trusted me with your stories, and I am so sorry for that.  You trusted in the fact that DEP would be around for a long while and I am truly sorry that we are not going to be.


If you have any questions or problems, please don’t hesitate to email me as I will be working to get last minute things tied up over the next several weeks.


Please feel free to post this on your blogs or websites as you see fit.  I would rather have the truth out about why we are closing, even if part of it is a personal issue, than to have DEP’s name trashed across the blog universe.  Lord knows some of those people do not have enough to do but sit around and pick their next victim.  I do not want it to be this company.


If I have not told all of you lately, it is and has been, a pleasure working with all of you gifted writers and DEP’s fantastic staff.


Debra Durham


Good twin fun!

Wednesday, March 4th, 2009

Note: This blog was originally published on my MySpace blog, February 28, 2008.

Got back from my two week trip to DC yesterday. The highlight was definitely Katsucon (an anime convention), and I’m planning to write a lot more about that once I’m nice and settled, but I wanted to drop in and let everyone know I was back. I also wanted to share how much I *loved* the AMV (Anime Music Video) awards. Discovered an artist named ForeverZeroo, who created an awesome AMV featuring one of my new favorite animes–Ouran High School Host Club. Her vid “Ouran! Love!Angst!Crack!!” won in the upbeat category, and afterward I got to check out one of their other vids. It’s called “Twincest” and, really, ’nuff said.

Embedding the YouTube vid below. If you’re out there, FZ, thanks for helping to make my first convention absolutely fantastic. 🙂

Where’s Rowan?

Wednesday, March 4th, 2009

Note: This blog was originally published on my MySpace blog, February 9, 2008.

From February 12th to 26th, I’ll be in Washington, DC and during some of that time, I will be wearing this hat:

Like it? Made it m’self—first time I ever tried painting fabric, so it’s a bit of a mess, but I’m uber proud of it. It’s based on Urahara’s bucket hat, and one of the places I plan to wear it is at an anime convention called Katsucon.

I had much fun making the cap, and I thought it might also be fun to play a little Hide-and-Seek. If you’ll be in the DC area during the two weeks mentioned above, and you see someone wearing this hat—

—Then walk up to that person and ask, “Are you Rowan McBride?”

If it is me, I’ll flash you a big goofy grin and give you a prize ranging from an autographed 8×10 featuring one of my book covers to a brand spanking new copy of Want Me. It’s been forever since I’ve played Hide-and-Seek, and it would be amazingly cool if someone found me. So, just to be sure, let’s the flash that hat one more time:

If you know people that dig my stories, tell them it’s game on. Let’s play!

Want Me

Wednesday, March 4th, 2009

Note: This blog was originally published on my MySpace blog, February 4, 2008.

On sale two weeks early.

It’s so new in the listings that a lot of sellers don’t even have a cover on the book page yet. lol.



Joel Beckett is blessed. He’s popular with the ladies, a star on the football field, and worshiped by everyone on campus.

Including Walker Cain.

Only Walker’s worship has crossed the line, driving him to invoke ancient magic that binds them together in an inescapable downward spiral. Now reality is shifting, and with each new life Joel is forced to watch Walker steal away another of the blessings he’d always taken for granted.

It’s never enough. Cursed blood runs hot, and with every turn of the spiral, Walker breathes the seductive words that Joel can’t resist. The words that could drag them both into Hell.

Want me.

Click here to learn more and read an excerpt.

You can pick it up now from online booksellers such as:

Lambda Rising
Wheatmark Publishing
Barnes & Noble

You can also order it through your local bookstore. How cool is that!

It’s my first print book. If you do pick it up and like it, I would greatly appreciate a review on If you don’t like it, then please send me a personal email.

On Shoes

Wednesday, March 4th, 2009

Note: This blog was originally published on my MySpace blog, January 23, 2008.

I have three pairs of shoes. A pair of loafers, a pair of sneakers with Yugioh shoelaces, and a pair of boots. The loafers are blue suede. For some reason I’ve owned at least one pair of blue suede shoes since I was twelve years old. I’m not sure why. I do not own the song. I’ve had the loafers so long that the suede across the top is two different colors because of the way the cuffs of my pants fall and block the sun.

Shoes are not something I contemplate often. I never thought this would be a problem.

But it so is, because I tend not to contemplate shoes in my stories, either. As a result, I sometimes forget to remove my characters’ footwear when they undress for sex. Up until this week, I’d believed I’d done a good job of catching that lapse before sending the story out to the masses. A few near misses, but all dodged bullets.

Shyeah, right.

My treasured illusion was shattered this week, when I sat down to revise Warm Rush, my first novel. Two sex scenes—two!—where I totally forgot to remove Keith’s shoes. I think the whole book only has three of them, so that’s what? A 66% failure rate for undressing one of my main characters? What does that say about me as a writer? Do I get to blame it on my upbringing? After all, I’m half Korean, so all my life I’ve kicked off my shoes at the door. Maybe subconsciously I have all my characters do that same thing, and that’s why in my head they’re already shoeless by the time they’re falling into bed, or onto the couch, or sprawled on the carpet…

{Ahem.} The point is that I was way embarrassed.

The good news is that I’ve got a second chance. I’m revising Warm Rush in the hopes of seeing it published again, because it’s one of my favorite stories, and it’s my first book, so it makes me sad that it’s out of print. I’ve learned a lot since then, so revising it has actually been kind of fun, and I normally think that revising sucks toes. This time around, Keith got to kick off his shoes, and Jesse got to be seduced all over again. I visited old friends and realized they’re even sexier than I remembered. That’s a good feeling.

I could say that this experience has changed the way I look at shoes forever, but that would be a bald-faced lie. I seriously doubt I’ll think of them much more than I do now, except to double check for clothing lapses when I’m revising. I will say that I thought about shoes like crazy this week.

Which is why I figured I’d write this blog—to give them their proper respect before I forget all about them again.

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W00t! "Paul’s Dream" has been nominated!

Wednesday, March 4th, 2009

Note: This blog was originally published on my MySpace blog, January 2, 2008.

Paul’s Dream has been nominated in the Preditors & Editors Readers’ Poll!  If you’ve read the story and liked it, you can vote for it at at  If you’ve never heard of the story, you can check it out on my site (read the excerpt, buy the book, etc) and if you happen to decide you like the story before January 14th, then please vote. 

W00t!  Pretty nice way to kick off the new year, yeah?


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